been a while since ive updated this. lotsa typos

          The summers nearly over, which means the return of school and cooler weather. Im really looking forward to it finally getting cold again because of how much easier and more comfortable it will be working at ups. I dunno how much longer ill be working there though if they dont switch my shift. The trailer I load everyday is enormous and takes over twenty states; its one of the heaviest loads in the building, which I work all by myself. Because of how good I do my job instead of switching my shifts my supervisor wants to make 'arrangements' to let me leave early to go to school. The thing is that I need more time than shes allotted me to get home, shower, and then go to class. Also if I leave forty five minutes early four times a week, thats three hours I dont get paid for which is roughly about $30. 30 x 52= $1560 I wouldnt be getting paid each year. Fuck that, my education is a lot more important to me than my part time job, and if my sup doesnt want to replace me when i go to sunrise, then she can replace me when I quit.
                  Assuming that is that I still go to school. Well, of course i am, its a matter of when and what. TMCC wont let me take my metals iii class because of prerequsiet issues, all of which ive met. See, their problem is that noone knows why the fuck the computer keeps telling me somethings wrong, and instead of finding the problem out, they put it off on someone else, giving me some other number to call until eventually I need to go to work, getting off after every one at TMCC gets off too. This is bullshit. This class is the reason why im not going to a real university. This is the highest level of professionalism ive ever dealt with. Theyre fucking me over.
                      Lastly, I need a way to get to school. I need a license within a week and no rides to the DMV. After I get that I need a car to get to school. Then get it registered and myself insured before i can drive it.

All these things I need finished in six days.
And nothing I can do about it till other people get on their shit
I need to smoke a bowl
-.-

needs toos buyz as carz soons
and finish registration
switch to the sunrise shift ats ups
and activate mize scholarships

...and thats about it for the rest of the summer

im buying an oz. tomorrow!

yay for pot

Life has kinda sucked lately.
Ive become really bored with myself already,
my 'friends' piss me the fuck off
I really need a new videogame
and buddha
and my weekends been pretty much ruined.

What sucks most about that is its my last weekend of freedom.
Ups is starting me on Monday [final-fucking-ly]
Subsequently, I dont have to go to Denver.
not even. I cant* go to Denver which kind of upsets me.
Im really torn because
~leaving Reno for a couple weeks would be bomb,
~Id spend all my time smoking, drinking, and playing videogames
~I wont be able to see my grandpa drink
~My grandma is nuts and getting way up there in the years. Shes had more medical complications this year than any other. My family is really worried about her, and so am I. I also really want to see her now that shes insane
~Its fucking beautiful at our house up in the mountain town of Conifer (an hour away from South Park)
~Casa Bonita!!
~Nostalgia. This is the longest Ive ever been since being there. It reminds me of all the times ive been there every time I go. Plus I miss watching the WB in my room every night.

But-
~I get to smoke and drink and play videogames at home.
~I have the house to myself
~I have a job. My life is x963284689235658 easier.

There are a lot more pros to going than cons.
=/

But anyway, I got my ID at the DMV today. So, its not my drivers licenses, close enough.
And i got a job, so as far as im concerned i met my goal of getting my shit together.
mission accomplished.
huzzah!
I also got a $300 bike today,
its cool.

I miss my friends.
I wish I had more to do.
Until then its mopping up all Bioshock's achievements
all.fucking.day.

if you read down youll see i said id be
mad at myself if i didnt have my shit together by summer.

well, its summer, and now im mad at myself.
Still havnt made it into the DMV
Still no word from ups
...
fuck.

on the brighter side,
-I graduated!
I threw up the wutang on the jumbotron
-Grades!
for the first time ever I pulled off a 4.0 the last semester of senior year
-Graduation money!
I bought Pans Labyrinth, Trainspotting, and Harvest Moon,
an eighth, two 2' blacklights, new subscription to xbox live,
an ipod, and I finally got a cell phone. Its neat.

I still need to buy:
new bowl for the bizzong chugs giving me before he goes,
detox, booze, a bicycle, ps2, okami, acid, and more trees.

Chug is moving up north in a few days permanently.
Chris is in Colorado for a month minimum- he might not becoming back home
[fucker has my gundam dynasty warriors]
All my friends are leaving.

Im leaving if I dont find a job to Colorado on the 22nd.
I really need a job, but Id actually not mind going back to Denver for once.
=|

does anyone actually read this?
if not i think ill delete the myspace blog with the link
along with my mindsay account.

A lot of things are bugging me right now.

Im bored as fuck. For some reason my "high speed" internet has been really slow lately. This really fucks with xbox live and makes Halo a lot more fucking difficult. Im running my xbox directly from my router, so theres no reason why it should be so slow. As a result, people glitch and vanish from one place to another, which really makes it hard to keep a cross hair on them. It takes me longer to come back to life, and is all around shit. I used to be fucking good at that game, now whenever I play it I curse it and turn the thing off.

My best friend treats me like shit. She can never make time for me, though she can make it for friends that are inferior to me. Ive been invited to come along with these friends, but I hate them cause theyre stupid little kids. If theyre not little they theyre just stupid kids, the likes of which I want to stay as far from as possible. She told me last time we saw each other for more than five minutes that the reason why was cause she could find anyone else to spend time with, and then sorta ditched me for her boyfriend. This the girl who cried when she heard I wanted to move her from my number one to my number two. But im actually really really good friends with her boyfriend,  which really sucks for me cause of how much time they spend together sans me. I can understand that theyre a couple and all, but I still always feel like a third wheel, which I hate. I knew both of them as well as I do now before they were together, and am too reluctant to find a new best friend to hangout with a lot. They fucking suck a lot of the time, but not as much as anyone else.
In addition, seeing them always rubs salt in my loneliness and opens the void she left even wider. And the fact I refuse to settle for the less I know I could makes the search for love even harder, and reminds me that the one girl I do like doesnt know I exist.
But to surmise, I feel that Ali takes me for granted. About the one feeling in our relationship I shouldnt feel.

I graduate in like, a week. That whole growing up over night feeling is kicking in more than ever. I met with my TMCC representative who had no idea what I was talking about when I told her about the six credits I was supposed to receive for completing Metals 1 and 2 with an 'A'. I told my career counselor about this who told me shed work on it. Its been a week since Ive heard from her, and its only a week until I need to have this shit done. fuck school/

UPS sucks my balls. Ive been trying to get a job there for over a year, and I think Im finally getting it. I got an employee referral card filled out by hernan, had a good interview, and called them the day after they said theyd call me. A week later they called (tuesday) and talked to me about my start times and more things to do online. she wasnt too clear about whether or not I got the position, and said she'd be in contact with me again "soon." if "soon" is as "soon" as last time, it will be quite a while before they call me back. I really need to know if I have a job or if I need to start applying at other places. Im thinking really negatively about all this, not cause I dont think I got it, but because for some reason Im always wrong. Its a terrible way to live, but unfortunately, how it usually happens.

im too poor to buy bud
im almost out of cloves
no alcohol

no choice but to suffer sober.
= /